After my brief update this morning/afternoon we left the dorm room finally and went to the Birmingham christmas german market, walked around the massive amount of stalls, looking at the wares and eating a LOT of stall food.
Deep fried mozzarella sticks
Chicken wings
Doughnuts
Big german sausage thing in a roll
Hot chocolate with amaretto
Raspberry cider (hot)
profitta rolls like thing (dough balls covered with vanilla sauce and cinnamon)
Was delicious!! :D
Damaged the funds but I figured its one night, it was nice to spend some time with Lena and explore the markets, only bad thing was the temperature, it was fucking cold! D:
Too much in a weird mood to type more, peace!
-----STATUS-----
CURRENT FUNDS: £25.75 -£10 (german world arc)
CURRENT HP: 536/800
CURRENT BORDOM LEVEL: ***
CURRENT HAPPINESS LEVEL: 89%
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Tuesday 30 November 2010
Birmingham Adventure. (UPDATE)
Woke, had breakfast, chatted to a few more of this flats students, drank another Mocha.
Lena's gone until 4pm, and I do not have a swipe card, so I can't leave.
I'm thinking of things to do...
Will post full post later tonight, just thought I'd update :D
-----STATUS-----
CURRENT FUNDS: £35.75
CURRENT HP: 702/800
CURRENT BORDOM LEVEL: *****
CURRENT HAPPINESS LEVEL: 78%
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Lena's gone until 4pm, and I do not have a swipe card, so I can't leave.
I'm thinking of things to do...
Will post full post later tonight, just thought I'd update :D
-----STATUS-----
CURRENT FUNDS: £35.75
CURRENT HP: 702/800
CURRENT BORDOM LEVEL: *****
CURRENT HAPPINESS LEVEL: 78%
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Monday 29 November 2010
Birmingham Adventure.
I left for birmingham, full of aspiration and wonder, thinking about the place I see so often on webcam, Lena's dorm room.
After a rushed sunday roast dinner with the parents, I left Warham and drove home, my mother met me there and drove both me and Lena to the bus in waiting at Fakenham.
The weather was cold, I even wore a coat.
Pretty much the whole bus journey I was blessed with sleep, so for me the journey seemed like only 15 minutes long, when in fact it was more like a hour and a half, that journey is soul destroying.
Then from there, we gained a party member in the form of an old lady wanting to also go to the train station in Norwich! so I said she could tag along, on the way to the train station I made notice of the various new strip clubs much to the ladies amusement, funny thing was I was mostly serous about liking to visit them hahaha!
At the train station we had a chance to sit down, I broke the chain off my travel good luck charm, and realized it was an omen, there were police everywhere in the station and dogs securing off an area.
As we left for our train we got stopped in a large crowd trying to get to the platform, the police would not let us past, then came the reason, ipswich football fans flooded the platform we needed, and the opposite platform was the native team of Norwich city, there was things being thrown and in between both rivals were a small group of passengers, including me and Lena.
Then the police had to get out their truncheons and hold back the Norwich fans who were starting to become out of control, I stood and mealy observed while Lena got increasingly frustrated and panicky.
After the train for the ipswich supporters left, we boarded a train to Manchester and got off at peterborough and waited for about 30 mins for a train to colshill park where on arrival we got a bus to Birmingham new street.
TODAY:
Woke up at 6am, but left the bed at 1pm as there was little else to do, then this evening decided to get acclimatized and go exploring in birmingham center.
Needless to say, I Got epic lost and ended up with 2 potatoes, some weird mineral water, and a present for Lena, mixed melon salad.
CURRENT FUNDS: £35.75
CURRENT HP: 655/800
CURRENT BORDOM LEVEL: ***
CURRENT HAPPINESS LEVEL: 90%
After a rushed sunday roast dinner with the parents, I left Warham and drove home, my mother met me there and drove both me and Lena to the bus in waiting at Fakenham.
The weather was cold, I even wore a coat.
Pretty much the whole bus journey I was blessed with sleep, so for me the journey seemed like only 15 minutes long, when in fact it was more like a hour and a half, that journey is soul destroying.
Then from there, we gained a party member in the form of an old lady wanting to also go to the train station in Norwich! so I said she could tag along, on the way to the train station I made notice of the various new strip clubs much to the ladies amusement, funny thing was I was mostly serous about liking to visit them hahaha!
At the train station we had a chance to sit down, I broke the chain off my travel good luck charm, and realized it was an omen, there were police everywhere in the station and dogs securing off an area.
As we left for our train we got stopped in a large crowd trying to get to the platform, the police would not let us past, then came the reason, ipswich football fans flooded the platform we needed, and the opposite platform was the native team of Norwich city, there was things being thrown and in between both rivals were a small group of passengers, including me and Lena.
Then the police had to get out their truncheons and hold back the Norwich fans who were starting to become out of control, I stood and mealy observed while Lena got increasingly frustrated and panicky.
After the train for the ipswich supporters left, we boarded a train to Manchester and got off at peterborough and waited for about 30 mins for a train to colshill park where on arrival we got a bus to Birmingham new street.
TODAY:
Woke up at 6am, but left the bed at 1pm as there was little else to do, then this evening decided to get acclimatized and go exploring in birmingham center.
Needless to say, I Got epic lost and ended up with 2 potatoes, some weird mineral water, and a present for Lena, mixed melon salad.
CURRENT FUNDS: £35.75
CURRENT HP: 655/800
CURRENT BORDOM LEVEL: ***
CURRENT HAPPINESS LEVEL: 90%
Sunday 21 November 2010
Current status:
Ok, Project Asphalt wave is still at 27.19% it will go up when I do the proper work and reading towards the projects mid term sections.
On a better note, "A Guards Tale", my game in development, has undergone a complete overhaul, so much has changed since I first began this project 3-4 years ago.
I have developed, finally, a dynamic introduction that not only sets the scene, but has cleverly interwoven characters and a set up much like that used in cinematography we see in todays films, no more are their pointless anime style, generic opening sequences, this game is my pride and joy, and as a result deserves nothing but the finest storytelling and effort to detail!
So this week I've re-directed and created a new intro, worked into and developed more system and database stuffs, so all in all Awesome progress there!!
Also learned to relaxe with the X-box 360, as I barley play it :D
PEACE!!
On a better note, "A Guards Tale", my game in development, has undergone a complete overhaul, so much has changed since I first began this project 3-4 years ago.
I have developed, finally, a dynamic introduction that not only sets the scene, but has cleverly interwoven characters and a set up much like that used in cinematography we see in todays films, no more are their pointless anime style, generic opening sequences, this game is my pride and joy, and as a result deserves nothing but the finest storytelling and effort to detail!
So this week I've re-directed and created a new intro, worked into and developed more system and database stuffs, so all in all Awesome progress there!!
Also learned to relaxe with the X-box 360, as I barley play it :D
PEACE!!
Thursday 18 November 2010
Meh...
Just cant function still, feel like my energy is sapped away, too tired to work, to productive to relax or sleep.
Going to work on my side business's website some more, since I actually have permission to use an amazing image for my site I'd be a fool to pass it down and not use it.
I want to get back into working on my game as well, its been a while since I last did anything, even if its just a bit of database work it would still be better than doing nothing, and I'm in a position to start rolling out the story.
I guess I need to sit down and work out the details in the plot and the way the character will follow it, also what connections the various party members will have to the story.
Project "Asphalt Wave" is at 27.19% and I need to get some income before its completion, so its time to start rolling out my Design business just to gain some capital before the main project is finished.
Peace you beautiful people!!
Going to work on my side business's website some more, since I actually have permission to use an amazing image for my site I'd be a fool to pass it down and not use it.
I want to get back into working on my game as well, its been a while since I last did anything, even if its just a bit of database work it would still be better than doing nothing, and I'm in a position to start rolling out the story.
I guess I need to sit down and work out the details in the plot and the way the character will follow it, also what connections the various party members will have to the story.
Project "Asphalt Wave" is at 27.19% and I need to get some income before its completion, so its time to start rolling out my Design business just to gain some capital before the main project is finished.
Peace you beautiful people!!
Tuesday 9 November 2010
Nerf N-Strike Stampede
http://www.hasbro-nerf-n-strike-stampede.com
OMG I Really want one of these, I've always wanted a nerf gun, but never saw one that grabbed my eye or fitted my style, ideally I'd like a revolver that looked like one, but second choice would be a fat machine gun, and having the ability to atach stuff on like a shield and to be able to customize the gun is very appealing to me, I preffer these to BB guns as these cause no pain and can be a great laugh!
I'm considering buying one of these some point soon, think its a good idea? Comment below!
OMG I Really want one of these, I've always wanted a nerf gun, but never saw one that grabbed my eye or fitted my style, ideally I'd like a revolver that looked like one, but second choice would be a fat machine gun, and having the ability to atach stuff on like a shield and to be able to customize the gun is very appealing to me, I preffer these to BB guns as these cause no pain and can be a great laugh!
I'm considering buying one of these some point soon, think its a good idea? Comment below!
Monday 8 November 2010
A productive day is not always blessed with good day.
Woke up late, Had to work through some economics's junk, and work out a process I'm no good at, day started off good but as it progressed it got worse and worse.
So far, everything I've predicted has happened.
I hope tomorrow starts to yield something more.
urgh.
Peace.
Sunday 7 November 2010
Sunday, funday, food day, hurray.
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Today I woke up late, around 11:50am ish, was too warm and comfy to move so I decided to stay for a bit before logging onto this PC and skyping.
Then at 1pm, Had a delicious roast dinner at my parents house, I loved it the potatoes I helped plant were delicious/"out of this world awesome" and managed to eat everything with that feeling of completeness without that feeling of overeating.
FINALLY I was reunited with my mountain bike I named "the mizasuke 6" and biked back home, probably burnt the meal off from just that, but then once I got home I had the urge to DDR, so headed down and tried again, for the second day, to complete a new challenge course I found on there called "World Tour" Its nine songs back to back, with a battery life (Meaning 3 mistakes = a fail, you get a maximum of two replenished upon finishing a stage).
I could not do it today, however got to the fourth stage, so almost halfway, but was too tired from the numinous attempts before it to concentrate well.
To end the session on a high, as my last song which was an Extra stage (Gained by scoring a AA or higher on your last stage) I picked Paranoia Survivor, now Extra stages are different, for a start your stuck with a 1.5 times speed modification on, and also, its in reverse, and to finally make it worse its on no recover (Meaning that if you miss a step your life depletes a little but will never increase again).
I passed Paranoia Survivor on 1.5 reverse no recover... I picked it as my grave, and I punched that grave into the stratosphere!!
Then I went home, Skyped some more, had a small fry up for dinner (needed the energy after intense DDR) finally finished up with a nice cap nap, played a little Fallout 3 and right now, as I write this, I'm buffering Episode 172 of One piece and watching it with the glorious other half :3
So, Might hit up some more games later after one piece, but just thought I'd break down my day.
Tomorrow is WORK MODE, so best have some moral boosters prepared for the morning, Peace you beautiful readers!
Saturday 6 November 2010
Saturday...What happened to you? (Asphalt Wave 18.70%)
CAT vs MIRROR!
Ok, I noticed something today, what happened to Saturday?
When I was younger Saturday was THE day, you know that one day a week where you knew you had a ton of fun exciting things to do etc!
From what I remember my day used to go like this:
Wake up at around 8-8:30am Watch ITV and most importantly watch Pokemon, then after that, I guess I'd head out, meet up with friends or visit friends houses, hang out all day playing video games or just go outside and build bases etc.
Then in the evening play some more games, maybe train some Pokemon or go on the Amiga etc, then at around 9-10pm go to sleep, I remember as a kid not ever waking up feeling bleh, and I remember not ever laying in bed trying to sleep it was automatic.
I remember something else too, I never used to like laying in bed, as soon as I was awake I'd spring from the bed and start my day!
Today's life:
Wake up at around 10-10:30am, Turn on PC and throw on a shirt and some underwear, sit at PC desk and check FB etc, then have a shower and SOMETIMES make something for breakfast, On some days I'll then remain in that spot in front of my PC working, or I'll put clothes on and go have a cup of tea at a shop and then come back and work.
Later in the day I might go and DDR or have a run, and, or Wii fit.
Then in the evening I'll be Skyping to my Girlfriend and either working or playing some fallout 3 OR making my game some more.
Basically, from the moment I wake, I'm a slave to this PC, and my uncomfortable chair, its no wonder why I sometimes get a little low, I have no social interaction, internet based social interactions are just fake, so I think the main reason life is where it is for me is the lack of decent friends that live close and actually want to spend time with you, and that's not anyone's fault its just because that when your young, you don't have to work, and thus your free time is any time of the day.
So, to enhance my life, I need various things to equate a better life:
1# Something Retro to watch in the mornings, even pokemon would do, but I have no Sky TV so I'll have to watch online.
2# Make time and arrange to meet up with some of my friends or even just visit parents, anything for real social interaction.
3# Wake up earlier and sleep before 1am
4# Designate time in the day for "me".
5# Either get a laptop or spend less time in my workspace.
It will be interesting to see how things go...
Just thought I'd analyse "Saturdays" Today.
Peace, you beautiful readers!!
Ok, I noticed something today, what happened to Saturday?
When I was younger Saturday was THE day, you know that one day a week where you knew you had a ton of fun exciting things to do etc!
From what I remember my day used to go like this:
Wake up at around 8-8:30am Watch ITV and most importantly watch Pokemon, then after that, I guess I'd head out, meet up with friends or visit friends houses, hang out all day playing video games or just go outside and build bases etc.
Then in the evening play some more games, maybe train some Pokemon or go on the Amiga etc, then at around 9-10pm go to sleep, I remember as a kid not ever waking up feeling bleh, and I remember not ever laying in bed trying to sleep it was automatic.
I remember something else too, I never used to like laying in bed, as soon as I was awake I'd spring from the bed and start my day!
Today's life:
Wake up at around 10-10:30am, Turn on PC and throw on a shirt and some underwear, sit at PC desk and check FB etc, then have a shower and SOMETIMES make something for breakfast, On some days I'll then remain in that spot in front of my PC working, or I'll put clothes on and go have a cup of tea at a shop and then come back and work.
Later in the day I might go and DDR or have a run, and, or Wii fit.
Then in the evening I'll be Skyping to my Girlfriend and either working or playing some fallout 3 OR making my game some more.
Basically, from the moment I wake, I'm a slave to this PC, and my uncomfortable chair, its no wonder why I sometimes get a little low, I have no social interaction, internet based social interactions are just fake, so I think the main reason life is where it is for me is the lack of decent friends that live close and actually want to spend time with you, and that's not anyone's fault its just because that when your young, you don't have to work, and thus your free time is any time of the day.
So, to enhance my life, I need various things to equate a better life:
1# Something Retro to watch in the mornings, even pokemon would do, but I have no Sky TV so I'll have to watch online.
2# Make time and arrange to meet up with some of my friends or even just visit parents, anything for real social interaction.
3# Wake up earlier and sleep before 1am
4# Designate time in the day for "me".
5# Either get a laptop or spend less time in my workspace.
It will be interesting to see how things go...
Just thought I'd analyse "Saturdays" Today.
Peace, you beautiful readers!!
Thursday 4 November 2010
Thursday Feelings... (Project "Asphalt wave" at 14.87%)
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Good day to you people, Its Thursday the fourth of November, meaning tomorrow is in fact one of the greatest days of the year; Bomb-fire night (I feel I have misspelt that)!!
Anyway Fireworks have been a long custom for me, each year testing the limits of my stupidity, last year I created a Firework rocket launcher which was amazing fun!
Anyway I love that who nostalgic smell of the sulphurous aftermath, the fires, people in warm clothing and of course the humble sparklers.
This Friday will be a little different, going out to See an old band I used to love in my younger years, called "Less than Jake" Me and Dale (another old friend) will be there in Norwich to see them, I must admit I'm somewhat apprehensive to go, I'll have to drive, meaning no drinking, and of course I know full well I'll be standing there watching with a lemonade or something strapped to my hand thinking why am I here! But I promised Dale I'd go, and I may be a lot of things but I never break a promise or my word for that matter.
Maybe I'll have a photo or two to upload on the Saturday, who knows!
Thursdays are weird, a lot of people consider them to be depressing as the weekend is within grasp but there is a wait.
I tend to enjoy Thursdays as its the one day of the week I know there will be a strong chance that some of my friends will be out having a few drinks at the back of the pub (I live above a pub) and its nice to get some social interaction at least once a week.
Since Starting "Asphalt wave" I've noticed how much of a recluse its forcing me to be, but its a needed, I need to get this right and it will flying kick me into my future, so a little sacrifice is worthwhile.
At this moment, its 1:03pm, I'm a little hungry as I've not yet eaten, so maybe its why I'm a little lethargic.
After this I'm going to head out, grab a few bites to eat, and come back with a better work mood, listen to music and achieve today's mile stone.
Ok people, time to get back to the grind stone, and trust me its a GRIND!
Peace!! :D
Wednesday 3 November 2010
Another life in the haze, of the days, of a myth.
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Hello, It's me, bet you was not expecting me to actually start posting on this blog daily again, but I'm trying, maybe not as long winded as my last post but surly a step in the right direction!
I've been working all day on project "Asphalt Wave" its actually starting to take shape, however all my energy seems to have been sapped, I have to just grind through the fatigue and work towards creating a better life for myself.
I miss my girlfriend, sappy as it sounds but its true, not sure if its just a hyper extension of my fatigue effecting my moods or whatever but that is just the way it is.
With the success of this project one of the more exciting avenues unlocked will not only be the options available to me with wealth but the ability to take my work on the move and make frequent short visits to see her, this is another large driving factor to my moral.
Another thing worth noting, is the amount of rage I'm starting to feel towards my chair, as some might know, my long serving PC chair exploded in a blaze of glory a few days ago, its failed assassination attempt left me with the option of a wooden chair used for our dining table, its horrific to sit on, if I add cushions its hard to actually not slide off it without them it feels like your sitting on the road.
So every now and then I get reminded how sine breaking it is and it causes me to want to obliterate it across my wall... however doing so would mean I'd have to stand.
So Today has been productive, I'll probably go for a run later tonight to get some sort of exercise, watch some more of season 6 of lost and finally maybe play some fallout 3 to relax... could really use a Jager bomb :(
So another update, I'm listing to Drum and bass and chilled out dubstep while working, it seems to help me concentrate and forget about other things.
Example:
Anyway, Lets hope tonight goes ok, going to have to skype a few people to try and not feel lonely, as sitting here in front of my two screens can be a very desolate place indeed.
Peace you beautiful readers!!
Tuesday 2 November 2010
A glorious plan.
Hello people, as of late I've been a but hectic, life has been throwing one problem after another at me and I'm sort of finally crawling out of the whole left from all these events.
I've, for a long time now wanted to create my design business which focused on graphic art and web design, after a a lot of testing and planning it has become apparent that web design is the main area all clients are interested in, this was originally great, but with my partner (and coder) having acquired a new job in Norwich I was reluctant to push web design as I cannot fully rely on that person any more, I'm grateful for all the help he had offered me during the setting up stages and initial Alpha clients.
I'm also happy that his life is starting to take more direction, I was at first distraught, I thought that after all this, what I had done was for nothing as without the web design I could never make much money, and that is what a business is, making money.
I thought about just being a sole graphic design company, and was implementing various ways that I could launch as successful as planned. But in this area the jobs would be too sparse to define the lifestyle I now wish to live.
I spent a great deal of time thinking, panicking; thinking what am I going to do now?
Also spent a lot of time playing video games and fitness just to try not think about the decisions and choices that I would have to make, and decide what life I was going to have.
I'd think back to all the people that still live in this town, that lost look they have when wandering the street and sitting on the quay wall looking upon the infinite horizon.
Maybe this town harbours more regrets than I initially thought, maybe this place was not the oasis I always thought it to be, but more like a pretty cage with a dark past.
There is a stark contrast held into one place here, you have the spring and summer, which is glorious and I can think of few places I'd rather be on a nice day than exploring the pine-woods and feeling that sea breeze stroking your face, or the warm sand seeping between your toes, life in the summer is slow and relaxing, but when autumn and winter comes it becomes different, the rains are long and relentless, the temperature always cold and the people always lifeless.
I'd watch the elderly pacing the street on a Thursday, filling out their routine of shopping and chatting with friends, but something looks wrong, there are few smiles, there is no atmosphere.
A few weeks back I sat on the edge of the quay and drank a bottle of wine in the howling wind and high tide, just thinking, and looking to the sea for answers, normally I get a message or a feeling that puts me back on track, but this time, the sea seemed empty, soulless, like the people that live here.
You have others of course, suffering the same fate, they walk to the pubs on a weekend, trying to replicate the feelings of summers fun and drinking the problems under the mat, each week complaining about the lack of anything happening, but still each week, like a ritual returning in hope for that one feeling, however they are misguided, this feeling they are chasing cannot be masked with alcohol, its a rouse for what is in fact a carefree lifestyle, the drink is only an inhibitor for their emotions forcing them to feel somewhat nostalgic and relate it to better times.
Truth is, all these people are unhappy and unfulfilled, the life they live, day in day out same thing, working hard for little money, living a life void of adventure or accomplishment, but rather more one of repetition and routine.
To sit and complain is the first stage of the "wells syndrome" as I've now called it, the next stage is to try and delude yourself that there is no other alternative.
See the mian problem with this place is that its not bad, and that is he trick, yes times can be bad but when the weather changes, all the in-ambitions and all the sadness of a routine life fade away behind the beaming sun, great weather and visual beauty, where as in a city when people get this feeling mostly they will either stay or just move away, but from wells there is something else, some tie to each person.
To try and describe it would be difficult but the closest thing I could make comparison to would be like that the town has threads attached to each person, you can try and leave but the treads always pull you back, you feel like your at home.
And when you have that safety its hard to break the ties unless you have a strong will.
The crime rate is very low, murder is unheard of here, and car crashes and fatal accidents are rare, the place is forgiving, and there is work around (granted not great career prospects) but you can live a slow and relaxed lifestyle here.
Anyway, this place has been for a long time a place in which I found myself in admiration of, its scenery is beautiful and lifestyle is relaxed, until recently...
I ventured out to the London expo, it was looking like I could not attend but through various lucky coincidences I managed to attend, now for those unsure EXPO is a Japanese animation and book convention, I don't read any Manga really any-more and only watch one Anime (One piece) but I go to see old friends, and catch up.
30,000 people attended this expo, needless to say it was packed full and I'd never seen so many people, I hung out with friends and spent a lot of quality time with my girlfriend who was amazing for me.
We stayed at a friends new flat in London, I was standing on his balcony which overlooks the 02 Arena, its a breathtaking view of tranquillity right next to canary wharf.
I stood and thought about what life I would like to lead, and stood thinking about if it was time to think about moving away from Wells and start living a life I want.
I got offered an opportunity, I could go and get a decent job in I.T. and live in an almost exact flat with the same view.
It was a big thing to think about, I was unsure if I could meet the criteria of the work and moving away right his second just felt strange.
It played with my brain for a bit, and then, after an amazing weekend, I returned home.
Then, another weird thing happened and I was talking to a very old friend, who has helped me set up "Project Asphalt Wave", If this project is successful I could have a vast amount of wealth in a very short period of time, and what's stranger is that I know that I can make this work.
So I've started working on it, and if all goes to plan, I can start travelling soon, and make a killing while I'm still travelling and probably afford a property too.
This is all speculation of course, and I will only know by giving it a try, so I'm going to, for the sake of wanting a better life, give this everything I've got, and if that fails I have the London job as a fall back plan, I just hope I can get this to work...
I thought I'd write a genuine post for once, honest, and clear.
Hope this post is worthy of the wait its been since my last post.
Peace you beautiful people!!
I've, for a long time now wanted to create my design business which focused on graphic art and web design, after a a lot of testing and planning it has become apparent that web design is the main area all clients are interested in, this was originally great, but with my partner (and coder) having acquired a new job in Norwich I was reluctant to push web design as I cannot fully rely on that person any more, I'm grateful for all the help he had offered me during the setting up stages and initial Alpha clients.
I'm also happy that his life is starting to take more direction, I was at first distraught, I thought that after all this, what I had done was for nothing as without the web design I could never make much money, and that is what a business is, making money.
I thought about just being a sole graphic design company, and was implementing various ways that I could launch as successful as planned. But in this area the jobs would be too sparse to define the lifestyle I now wish to live.
I spent a great deal of time thinking, panicking; thinking what am I going to do now?
Also spent a lot of time playing video games and fitness just to try not think about the decisions and choices that I would have to make, and decide what life I was going to have.
I'd think back to all the people that still live in this town, that lost look they have when wandering the street and sitting on the quay wall looking upon the infinite horizon.
Maybe this town harbours more regrets than I initially thought, maybe this place was not the oasis I always thought it to be, but more like a pretty cage with a dark past.
There is a stark contrast held into one place here, you have the spring and summer, which is glorious and I can think of few places I'd rather be on a nice day than exploring the pine-woods and feeling that sea breeze stroking your face, or the warm sand seeping between your toes, life in the summer is slow and relaxing, but when autumn and winter comes it becomes different, the rains are long and relentless, the temperature always cold and the people always lifeless.
I'd watch the elderly pacing the street on a Thursday, filling out their routine of shopping and chatting with friends, but something looks wrong, there are few smiles, there is no atmosphere.
A few weeks back I sat on the edge of the quay and drank a bottle of wine in the howling wind and high tide, just thinking, and looking to the sea for answers, normally I get a message or a feeling that puts me back on track, but this time, the sea seemed empty, soulless, like the people that live here.
You have others of course, suffering the same fate, they walk to the pubs on a weekend, trying to replicate the feelings of summers fun and drinking the problems under the mat, each week complaining about the lack of anything happening, but still each week, like a ritual returning in hope for that one feeling, however they are misguided, this feeling they are chasing cannot be masked with alcohol, its a rouse for what is in fact a carefree lifestyle, the drink is only an inhibitor for their emotions forcing them to feel somewhat nostalgic and relate it to better times.
Truth is, all these people are unhappy and unfulfilled, the life they live, day in day out same thing, working hard for little money, living a life void of adventure or accomplishment, but rather more one of repetition and routine.
To sit and complain is the first stage of the "wells syndrome" as I've now called it, the next stage is to try and delude yourself that there is no other alternative.
See the mian problem with this place is that its not bad, and that is he trick, yes times can be bad but when the weather changes, all the in-ambitions and all the sadness of a routine life fade away behind the beaming sun, great weather and visual beauty, where as in a city when people get this feeling mostly they will either stay or just move away, but from wells there is something else, some tie to each person.
To try and describe it would be difficult but the closest thing I could make comparison to would be like that the town has threads attached to each person, you can try and leave but the treads always pull you back, you feel like your at home.
And when you have that safety its hard to break the ties unless you have a strong will.
The crime rate is very low, murder is unheard of here, and car crashes and fatal accidents are rare, the place is forgiving, and there is work around (granted not great career prospects) but you can live a slow and relaxed lifestyle here.
Anyway, this place has been for a long time a place in which I found myself in admiration of, its scenery is beautiful and lifestyle is relaxed, until recently...
I ventured out to the London expo, it was looking like I could not attend but through various lucky coincidences I managed to attend, now for those unsure EXPO is a Japanese animation and book convention, I don't read any Manga really any-more and only watch one Anime (One piece) but I go to see old friends, and catch up.
30,000 people attended this expo, needless to say it was packed full and I'd never seen so many people, I hung out with friends and spent a lot of quality time with my girlfriend who was amazing for me.
We stayed at a friends new flat in London, I was standing on his balcony which overlooks the 02 Arena, its a breathtaking view of tranquillity right next to canary wharf.
I stood and thought about what life I would like to lead, and stood thinking about if it was time to think about moving away from Wells and start living a life I want.
I got offered an opportunity, I could go and get a decent job in I.T. and live in an almost exact flat with the same view.
It was a big thing to think about, I was unsure if I could meet the criteria of the work and moving away right his second just felt strange.
It played with my brain for a bit, and then, after an amazing weekend, I returned home.
Then, another weird thing happened and I was talking to a very old friend, who has helped me set up "Project Asphalt Wave", If this project is successful I could have a vast amount of wealth in a very short period of time, and what's stranger is that I know that I can make this work.
So I've started working on it, and if all goes to plan, I can start travelling soon, and make a killing while I'm still travelling and probably afford a property too.
This is all speculation of course, and I will only know by giving it a try, so I'm going to, for the sake of wanting a better life, give this everything I've got, and if that fails I have the London job as a fall back plan, I just hope I can get this to work...
I thought I'd write a genuine post for once, honest, and clear.
Hope this post is worthy of the wait its been since my last post.
Peace you beautiful people!!
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